“The Thief comes only to kill and destroy but I have come so that you may have life and have it to the full.” John 10:10
I do not know that I have ever been more overwhelmed by the goodness and faithfulness of God than I have been the past couple of days. I keep walking around in a complete daze, rocked by the awesomeness of Jesus. I am getting married to a man that I fell in love with the moment that we first saw each other. Literally the moment we locked eyes I knew that he was my husband. Story book love at first sight. My heart dropped and that was it. Done deal.
When we went on our first date I was completely blown away by how uniquely perfect he was for me. I never wanted it to end. He did things and said things that I had thought before- it was like I just immediately got him. Matt is above and beyond everything that I could have ever hoped for. And now I get to spend the rest of my life growing and walking through life with him. I can barely breathe thinking about it. It is a complete miracle that is completely and totally the biggest blessing of my life.
I could not have even dared to dream about someone like Matt a couple of years ago. I was just getting to know Jesus and had some big steps of faith to take in romantic relationships. At every step of faith, I made it knowing that Jesus was enough, but also feeling like I was going to be alone forever. I stepped away from relationships that weren’t honoring to God and at every point had to make peace with the idea that God would honor those steps of faith. I remember spending countless nights praying to God that God would prepare my heart for my husband and that at the same time He would protect him and bring him to me quickly. The road to meeting Matt has been messy, often filled with tears, and a lot of longing. It has been dirty and often times full of despair.
If you are walking that road now, I want to grab your hand, hold you and tell you to hang on. My heart breaks for those in this place because I have walked that road and I know it is nothing short of completely heart wrenching. But God is faithful. He will honor those big steps of obedience. He will show up bigger for you than you could possibly ever have dared to imagine. He is working. He is moving pieces around in your life during those nights spent praying in tears. He will show up. This I know. He is worthy of your trust.
I want to plead with those girls, like me who were completely terrified to take those steps of faith and tell you to step away from the doubt and to do it now. Now. Do not wait. God is faithful. He is going to show up. He knows you better than you know yourself and is going to provide accordingly. You deserve more. And there is so much more.
He has come so that you may have LIFE and have it to the FULL. I have never been more full and more thankful. We are getting married!!! Eeeekkkkkkkkkkkkk !! I can NOT even wait.
