I have never been one for subtlety and literally started off 2014 with a ‘life changing decision’ bang. The thing about God’s nudging is that often at the time it makes literally zero sense. I could only cling to the fact that God created my heart, knew it and was nudging it for an unknown reason.
Sometimes God screams out direction to people, but 2014 has been a year of gentle nudging for me that would have been much easier to ignore than to follow.
I spent the summer clinging to God’s faithfulness as I studied for the Bar Exam. He sent angels in the form of family and friends. Loved ones prayed over me before I took the Bar Exam, showed up with food, notes of encouragement and prayed for me on the hour for those 48 hours that I sat for the Exam. My family sat with me when my exam kept failing to upload. We just had to trust God who had gotten me this far would get me through the final push. Miraculously, my exam ended up uploading.
Those months following the exam, God gave me a lot of peace about the fact that my family and loved ones had prayed for my exam and if it was His will, I would pass and if not, then there was a bigger reason. Hearing that I passed the Bar Exam in October, was just another reminder of God’s faithfulness.
It makes me want to cry thinking about the ways “faith” have defined my 2014. God has shown up in bigger ways than I ever thought possible last January and has left me totally filled with awe as I look back at his faithfulness.
“Faith” has been such a huge theme of my year that it seems God ordained.
Every time I brought a situation to God and asked for direction, He has guided. Every time I doubted His provision, He has provided. Every time He moved my heart, He has protected it. Every time I felt confused, He brought clarity.
Steps of faith are not necessarily joyous moments.
I spent a lot of 2014 being stretched, broken and rebuilt all in the name of “faith.” In most respects 2014 would seem like a really hard year and honestly it was. But “faith” kept me so close to Jesus, grew and healed my heart in ways that are only possible through God. 2014 showed me that only Jesus is worthy of faith.
Oh “faith,” you have been so good to me.
